#reverb10

Today's prompt:

December 5 – Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? (Author: Alice Bradley)

Did I let go of anyone? No, I've been lucky that this year I didn't lose anyone close to me. It's a relief to know I still have everyone close to me who I started the year off with.

Of course there has been losses, but they are distant, removed from me. A lady I used to work with was killed in car crash a few weeks ago. Her and her husband were killed in the crash while the four children with them (they have five) were all injured, but are alive. This horrible loss is distant from me but it still makes me sad, still makes me cry.

I think that I've decided to let go of the attitude, of the horrible state of mind I was in. I decided to let go of all that and embrace my mothering instinct. I need to do this. The past 30 years of my life were all about me - its time to give up being selfish and make it all about the child. This is a new leaf I am turning, now that I feel somewhat mentally healthy. I'm not completely better, but I am getting there, that's for sure.

Today, I even did crafts with my child. I am not a 'crafty' person, not at all, but I sat with him got my fingers filled with glue and glitter as we made Christmas Tree cards to give to our family. This is not my usual way to spend a Sunday afternoon, but I did it and I think both the kiddo and I were better for it.

Nothing a little water can't get rid of, or a quick vacuum.